Oh, confusion bounds me, it sees me, it wrecks me
It renders me faithless, it renders me thin.
It consumes all my hatred, it eats up my roses
It digs me a grave and shovels me in.
My head in A MAZE of pitfalls and boobytraps.
Eric is there – a monster? A savior? A leaning post, a companion, a teacher, a preacher, a murderer, a loser, a basket of SIN?
How do I do it? How do I think it?
How do I say it or feel it or know?
Unsure of myself
Is this just the Dance of the Absurd?
I reserve myself from that judgment
Because I can create something better.
I can see the sun
And the mountains in the sky
And I know that it is not part of that crazy dance.
But do I fit in that heaven?
It tells me so
It invites me to dance
Even though I am so clumsy.
Oh, I feel as though I’ve traveled eons in the past two years.
I can feel myself in the doorway – gently gliding through
Belonging here, and I’ve been here before
Welcome, the cool breeze tells me
Time waves in my higher consciousness
Eternity waves hello
Soulmates in a sea
And I greet her,